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If I Could Live My Life Again
Jorge Luis Borges

In the next one I would try to make more mistakes.
I would not try to be so perfect, I would relax more.
I would be sillier than I have been, in fact, I would take very few things seriously.
I would be less hygienic.
I would take more risks, make more trips, contemplate more sunsets, climb more mountains, swim more rivers.
I would go to more places I have never been to, I would eat more ice creams and less cereals.
I would have more real problems and less imaginary ones.
I have been one of those persons who lived each minute of his life with judgement and in a prolific way; of course I had happy moments.
But if I could go back, I would try to only have good moments.
For if you don't know, that is what life is made of, only of moments; do not miss the now.
I was one of those who never went anywhere without a thermometer, a bag of hot water, an umbrella and a parachute;
if I could live again, I would travel lighter.

Great Expectations

The last few days have been an absolute whirlwind. For no reason in particular, it's just the everyday happenings of my life. Sometimes I think I do too much, try too hard. But then I look at it again and wonder "Why not?" I'm not doing anything (school, sorority, band, etc.) that I don't absolutely love, so "Why not?" I don't know why not, other than, it's, really, really hard to do it all. I hope that this past week has not been indicative of how my whole semester will go, or else we are in for a long one.

Things are looking up, though! Next week, Emily, Keshia, Madeline, and Koro (4 of my best friends from home) are coming up for the weekend! I absolutely cannot wait!!

So, Grey's this week was something interesting, and for the first time, I actually identified with Meredith's narration there at the end. Something about it just resonated with me. So, here it is:
"We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes are expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still. The expected's just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives."

My Red High Heels

So, the past two weeks have been crazy. I got back to school on Saturday night and recruitment prep started on Sunday morning. I love recruitment, don't get me wrong, but it is just not good that it coincides with the beginning of Spring semester. I finally bought my books on Tuesday (almost a full week after classes started), but have yet to have time to figure out what I should be reading in them. I'm just gonna sum up that recruitment week in a few words:
so fun
exhausting
lots of driving to random places throughout middle Tennessee
few classes
no voice
Annnnddd...that's all on that.

This week has been emotionally draining for me. I'm not even sure why. I think it's mainly the fact that I am so far behind in academics. That just sets everything else off. There has been lots of crying and very little sleeping, but I've made it through (thanks in part to my fabulous housemates and....ahem....Professor Chatman--a whole other story). You know that John Mayer song "Something's Missing"? That's very similar to this whole thing right now. I just can't figure out what's going on, but I know that I will make it there.

Until then, I just need to have fun. That's what I've decided. So, tonight we're watching Legally Blonde and having mocktails at the house, and then I'm putting on my cute shoes and going out. I think it's just what the doctor ordered.

Believe it or not Kelly Pickler may have said it best:
Baby I’ve got plans tonight
You don’t know nothin’ about
I’ve been sitting around way too long
Trying to figure you out
But you say that you’ll call and you don’t
And I’m spinning my wheels
So I’m going out tonight
In my red high heels

Sweet Home Germantowna

So, I've been home for about 3 days now, and it is fabulous! I have watched insane amounts of tv and slept even more. Friday night, we had a family Christmas party and it was fun to get to see everybody that I only see once a year at this time. My cousin made this dip from cream cheese, Ro-tel, and sausage...it was somehin' special, so be looking for it coming to a party near you ;-). Saturday, I slept until about 1:00 and then my dad and I got to go to the a chamber orchestra concert. My mom wouldn't go, so I had to be my dad's "date". They had this guest performing group with two violins and a bass, and they played mainly bluegrass stuff, which was really cool.

Today, I got to go to church. For the first time ever, I went to the church I grew up in by myself. It was a strange experience. I usually go to church by myself in Nashville, but I just wasn't used to it in this church. It was kind of a scary sign that I'm growing up...there, I had always been accompanied by my parents. Now, I am able to go there alone and be okay with it. I was just great to be there.

Then I came home, watched football, slept, and watched more football. It was glorious.

I've got some work and such to do before leaving for Chicago on Wednesday (so excited!), but hopefully I can see all of my Gtown loves before I leave!!

First one!

So, I've decided to try this blog thing again. Read if you wish, I think it's a good way to keep up with people that I may not get to see that often. Update coming soon!